Finally, the lazy utako uploaded the photos to the web. In fact the "real" crab fest is not this night, but the other week before. The Saarbrucken chinese community ordered some kilos of crabs and we (7 people) got one bucket of 5 kg crabs, all "active". This photo only shows the two crabs which we finally finished them in my home. The main role of the night is indeed the piano :)

 

http://picasaweb.google.com/meetutako/2008_11_crab_fest_and_piano#

 

This is a far-from-perfect digital piano owning to its budget price, nevertheless, it is still my love, like the "first love" that everyone will always think as the most unforgetable. It has beautiful sound, and lots of functions which I have no idea of how to use them :p. It has a midi output, but I don't have cable to connect it to my computer, so ... well. in fact i am not dare to record and share my playing with you yet, it is still very bad. However, i will work hard on that, yeah!

 

 

 

Let me write something in this sleepless night.

 

太久沒有寫blog了,很好奇再有沒有人會來這個blog.

這個星期最令我開心的事就是買了個digital piano,應該下個星期會送到.

樂器中我最愛的是piano,可以話自小就喜愛.

可惜學琴非常昂貴,只可以從學別的樂器開始了.

小五開始我學了2年的口風琴,教我們的老師非常帥,人品好,有耐心,

而且還是基督徒,常安排我們出外表演.那時我們班有個漂亮的女孩

piano彈得非常好,真的很羨慕呀.

 

初中時,我返教會.教會中很多人都會彈琴,而且教會有台很好的琴,

於是我有機會便去彈下.

不過自己不很會彈,盡量在沒有人的時候彈,教會音樂的曲子很美,也很有

規律,比較容易上手. 說到教會,開始時最吸引我的是吉他班,老師們都是

從香港教會來的弟兄,每個星期專程趕來上一個小時的課.第一首學會的

曲子是什麼我已不記得了,但最後教的一首是Donna Donna.

 

終於高中時我開始學piano了.老師是國內來的,有了一口國語廣東話混

合的口音,有時開心或angry時會只說mandarine,很好笑.中學的校長很

好,家中沒有琴,她便讓我用學校音樂室的piano來practise.但因為課室

下課了後要鎖門,所以也不能用很長時間.於是我又租琴老師的琴室來

practise,往往都是在她吃晚飯時practise,然後她吃完了上課..不知

這段時間她會不會因為我的琴聲弄得沒有胃口呢..

 

學琴是按級數計學費的,一年學了三級的我...學費也長得很快,還要

買書啦,租琴啦,...唉,家裡都支持不了,所以再半年後我就放棄了.

 

來了德國,很巧合,今年一月我們組有位學生是個敉琴老師,他教了我

一首turkish march

看著他溫柔的手在琴上彈出這麼悅耳的音樂,又重新讓我愛上piano.

學校有個琴室可以租用,lunch time or evening,我會走去彈琴.手在琴

上真的把什麼煩惱都暫時忘記,累的時候也會提神,呵呵,好像做運動呀.

餓的時候,開始彈了也不會覺得餓. 哈哈...

 

所以嘛,我買了piano啦.好像dream come true咁.

 

 

 

好啦, business trip 回來了. 老實講, 這個是我多個conference以來最enjoy的, 雖然到了第二天就開始生病了,但全個conference我都是全程投入,時時安排full full的時間表, 慕求學到最多野.

這個是一年一度美國Biophysical Society的meeting, 年年都係美國開, 還選在最泠的二月天, 幸好今年在LA,已經溫暖很多. First impression about this conference is: huge!!! almost thousand poster a day, 4 parallel sessions, schedule from 8 in the morning to 10 in the night. I have never been so crazy in a conference!! This is American scientists... admire!!

 

What I enjoy the most is,  I met most of the big guys in the field I am working in, I attended their talks, I talked to them, I met their students, we discussed, we laughed :) I have never thought this kind of meeting could be such enjoyable to me. I joined the poster competition in the second day, wonderful, I wasn't nervous at all but chatting with my two poster neighbours, until almost the end of the session my referee came to me and again, we chatted. Of course, I didn't get any prize in this competition, but I believed I prepared enough, just that my topic was not much interested to them.

 

It wasn't so good to be sick in the middle of the conference, I missed the whole morning session and most of the afternoon session, because I couldn't have a clear mind for that. Luckily our hotel was wonderfully comfortable :) and I was able to rest well.

 

The rest of the trip is a real leisure trip around LA, some photos are here:

 

Most of the days were bad: windy, cold... and that's why I got sick. The last two days were nice and warm, but the wind could be quite chilling.

 

Ah.. one thing was very disappointing was the landscape in long beach, it was completely destroyed by the busy cargo harbour located exactly along the coast. The beach was dirty...  :(

 

 

 

 

真係一年先寫得5隻手指都數得完的blog. 本想唔寫的啦, 但由於我最近upload左d相去我個 web album,所以係到宣傳下咁啦:

 

年底去了奧地利,風光如晝,真係有山有水又有雪, 非常推薦.

 

回來後發了足足一個星期的白日夢, 終於今個week夢醒了, 要開始工作了.

 

仲有一d去了十月Portugual的相, Spain的還未弄...要再等一兩個星期吧.

 

下個friday又要出trip, 真係business trip...呀, 唔係, 係conference  trip至真. California LA... 我個同事就好鬼興奮, 買左本書想同我討論到底去邊到玩, 我呢, 就為個d忙極都忙唔完的projects煩緊.不過, 時間會過得好快, 都係努力d工作啦!

 

零除以零是多少呢? 呢條真係數學題黎架,唔係IQ題.

0 / 0 = ?

 

if you are still awake in the middle of the night, what will you do?

 

eating..internet surfing...chatting...keep dreaming... or any better ideas?

點算好呢...

哈,終於成功了,吃落又甜又香.所謂成功在嘗試,試下試下...heeheee...

 

從sitou回澳到現在才幾日,可能真係悶得滯,日想夜想都係到想緊到底整乜野cake好.週日我就做了apple pie,M記口味的,真的很好吃!不過又係唔係好識收尾,焗出來又"埋"唔到口,焗到爆晒.

 

明天又放假,於是今日收工又立刻上網查o吓muffin怎樣整,趕住超市仲未收拿拿臨去買d材料,就係flour同baking powder,同小型紙杯.點知...返到屋企,原來仲有隻熟到就爛的banana,所以....就整香蕉合桃muffin.材料簡單,但雞手鴨腳的我,搞左成兩個鐘先可以開始焗.焗到一半(可能自己太貪心,一個杯放太多料),發到爆晒出來...於是又要從新放過去d新杯到,一隻杯只可放一半料.好心急呀,等20分鐘,金黃香甜的muffin出爐了.好開心呀!!!不過都已經11點半了,所以自己只食左兩個.唔知剩返d muffin聽日食會唔會一樣咁好味呢?

 

真的真的,很久沒有去shopping了!上次回澳因其他的事忙並沒如以前大量入貨.昨天心血來潮到了bahnhofstrasse一趟,終於試了很多衫.原來今天德國的夏裝還真的不錯,走有點亞洲的潮流,當然款式還是沒有亞洲的多.xkana(名字大慨是這樣)又大減價,可惜沒有合我的size.我真的又肥了,以前這裡的s碼褲都穿不上,現在才剛剛好...慘!如以往,又平又cute的bikini在 H&M 及 new yorker都有,最後我都買了一套.還有好睇好用的凉鞋,yeah!

Unbelievable! I still remember, the first working day of my PhD here. I was sitting in the room of another group because our group still had no empty desk for me. In the evening, our group went out to a bar for some drinks, all of them were completely drunk: come on, 7 Teilqua, who can still walk a straight line after that! I saw my boss walking home in zigzeg way.... what would my days be.. i couldn't imagine at that time.

 

From then on, work, work and work. My boss sitting just next door 5 times a day come in and ask each one of us, "Results?" ha ha... he is pushy, but he is a nice guy. Our group is small, only 4 phd students and a couple of master students. We meet everyday in the coffee break, talking about ... beside scientific topics (only a few minutes usually), mostly about  how to find girl friends, learning italian "swear" words, and not few about sex. :) well! it was fun.

 

Yeah, this year was quite tough. In the start,  I have to adjust myself to everything: how to work with my boss, how to communicate with my colleagues, how to live alone, how to learn, how to teach...Every day is a full day and tiring, but not bored. I think I am crazy, I don't know why I enjoy research work so much. I do PhD because of a stupid "dream" -- just to enjoy the process of doing research.

 

I would say, my boss really like research a lot. He is the type of person who can check email every minute, working without the need to eat. He is also crazy. But ever since he became father, he is a bit "milder" in being a researcher, because his son likes to meet him every evening.

 

Indeed, germany is a good place to do research. I found a lot researchers here smart and communicative. I like listening to them. They can talk a sexy speech on the fly -- don't make me wrong, sexy means attractive here. In work, they are like computers; off-work, they are like charming pop-stars, well, of course some are just common people. :) The next thing I like here is the "manner" of doing research. It is a "serious" work, one has to do it with respect and prudent. I am learning....

 

Then how about my work? It is going... quite slowly. Handling 4 projects at the same time, it was not so easy. I can't switch from one to the other so quickly, and it is very ineffective because I have to dig all the time from my memory about the last task, so I decide to sort them out and do them one by one next year.

 

This year I make a lot of new friends, they are all kind to me :) Thousand thanks to them.

 

Thinking of what I missed this year? I didn't spend time on the topics that I wanted to learn: statistical mechanics and partial differentiation. I wish I could do it in the next year. I want to have a paper written all by myself and of course submit to good journal. I wish I can start speaking some german -- I think I can advance to the "intermediate" course next year. I wish I can be more organized and so can be a bit more effective.

 

Seem my life is only "work". No no, I visited a lot of places in this year too, let me count: UK, Italy, Sweden, Finland, Switzerland.  More than enough ^_^. But indeed, most of my evening time I was working. So, the last wish is to have more spare evenings for chatting and meeting my friends.

 

This sunday, 11 Feb, I am going back to Macau for a 3-week holiday. Once again, I can spend my chinese new year in my own city, with my family and loved one. I miss all the yummy food and all the sweet friends there.... wait for me :D

 

 

 

一年裡有一天我是最討厭的,就是今天.三百六十五天,地球繞了太陽一圈後又來到這一天.怎麼時間就不會停留,或者跳過這一天,讓它被忘了算吧!今天如常的生活,十個小時不停在思考工作上的事,努力努力,以為這便可把今天忘了.但是奇怪地人人都在問我今天搞什麼,明天搞什麼,什麼什麼,搞什麼,你們想搞什麼,我早要把今天忘了,還是被提醒著.

 

其實看到你們寄給我的e-card和問候,都很高興.但是自己有點不現實,還是想著今天不要來,明天永遠不會到...

聽了很多心事,不開心的,心碎的,痛心的,苦惱的,就沒有什麼是高興的. 是的,這些事在一生不長又不是很短的日子裡是十常八九的. 但生命嘛, 什麼都經歷過才是精彩, 回頭再看才會津津樂道. 把這些日子捱過去吧! 不, 要欣賞著捱過去. 記得小時怎樣學走路嗎? 努力的爬起來, 不小心又跌下, 頭一兩次可能會哭, 再試一兩次, 跌多了也會笑笑口. 再試試....看, 大家現在都會行會走了啦.

 

跌累了嗎, 那就是須要安靜下來的時候了. 想哭嗎? 好, 哭吧. 哭完了要再試下爬起來哦! 或許改個態勢爬起來就會成功呢! 我支持你, 為你禱告, 主也支持你的, 祂今天是這樣對我說的 ^_^

今天特別無聊，一點勁都提不起來.
還有三個星期就是我的長假，回澳門過年．
出來讀書，年年都回家，但今年是第一次
新年回去，分外興奮．終於，可以親手再
逗利是，到處拜年，玩下煙花．唔知到時
的已婚朋友們會否避開我呢．．．

我要大利是，大利是！！！我有無煙花玩

都係靠你地囉

又是一個月的最後一個weekend,今天一早跑到dudobad,就是我家附近的一個室內游泳池,走到門口看見門上了鎖,驚奇的以為是這邊門閉了,又傻呼呼的走到另外一邊門去...哎呀,泳池內連燈都沒有開,看真一點,人影都沒有!! 原來泳池在裝修呢! 好不容易才等到冬天來臨有暖水池可以玩玩,這到底怎麼搞的?我上週才買了張十次票呢.

好好,沒有了算吧.邊跟朋友走回家邊聊著說德國的週日真悶蛋,什麼商店都關門,交通又不方便,朋友又沒幾個,呆在這種地方生活又怎會開心.又是的,都已三年了,這個問題我一直都沒有想過,可能我的頭腦簡單,只會想及做單一的事,我來是為了讀書嘛,讀得好便是了.

回到家,幸好我們住的地方朋友還算是有的,找找朋友們便定了個下午消閒的活動,就是到學校打table tennis.我買的拍子終於可以用一次了,嘻,才是第一次呢!

一邊騎單車到學校,回想起今天早上的話題:有人選擇了留澳邊升學邊工作,這樣生活學習工作一併兼顧確是累人,但身邊有著愛自己的人支持著,累中也甜呢.有人選擇了跑出來,放下家人朋友工作,聽起來瀟灑,看起來可被羨慕了,但孤單的日子也不好過呢,何妨被放棄了的家人朋友或許也會同樣的感到孤單.所謂有得必有失,魚與熊掌呢.當然選擇了便要勇往直前,不再回頭,還有兩年吧,兩年是我的目標.

最後,打球看球挺爽的.我當然是打得最糟糕的一個了,算算手指,我這一世人站在波枱前的機會不到十次.計分的話,不到半分鐘就已得分0:5,也嚇了我自己一跳.之前立起心要去買個拍子就希望會有機會多打一些,但我想想要找個願意和我打的對手也不易呢,老要撿球會很累的 ^_^,如果有發球機就好了,最好也是免費的.

今天德國改冬令時間了,長長的冬天又開始了.

對於我來說"爽的感覺"就是家裡很乾淨整齊.今日九月份的最後一個星期六,這個summer的conference都過去了,終於可以留在家休息休息.以前在澳門,可能媽媽的照顧是那麼呵護備至,家的什務我基本上都不用操心.來了德國大大話話都已三年了,我發覺我喜歡了做家務(除了洗衫).今早一氣呵成的把所有工夫都做完,又可以赤著腳在家走來走好,好爽呀!

 

慰勞自己的方法呢,就係one good meal啦! 呢個就係"紅絲蝦仁蘑菇炒飯加黑森林薰肉"

如題 ^_^, 因為又唔係好聽得明,好彩的係個schedule唔係好緊,又有一些free time.今次真係咁大個女第一次去游湖, 係游水個游, 又玩sauna同steam...哈哈, 好開心啦!

 

如果你問我係個workshop學到d乜,我想... 最大的發現係原來d物理學家真係乜野都可以研究一大餐,又可以用比較簡單的數學將現實的系統模擬出來,再將佢地分析又分析. 但係無論如何,人腦始終都好有限, 花了幾百年的工夫, 實驗來實驗去, 一個小小的系統都不能完全了解, 可見造物背後的大智慧!!

 

最吸引我的talk就係包括講有一種protein佢點樣可以即時做止血,同埋一種帶磁的液體佢的應用啦,同埋一個"分裂"pattern旳研究. 雖然話吸引,但係都只係聽明最簡單的部份啦.聽唔明個陣...未發下夢囉.有一個talk真係有頭到尾都唔明,坐我旁邊個人問我明唔明佢講乜,我....坦白的搖了搖頭,佢即時笑了起來.佢係邊個?就係全場問問題問得最多的一個人囉...這麼坦白的回答了他真的有點丟臉 >,< 不過,我都係安慰自己:算啦,我都盡左力啦...

 

聽日一連三日去bostalsee的一個workshop,係資助我phd的組織弄的.講是一個workshop,但由於其他參加的同學都係物理為主,所以workshop的talk都係圍繞物理呀,做實驗呀,等等為主題.唉,真係唔知三日之後聽完呢d talk之後,我會"發呆"成點o的樣.但係呢個workshop有個好處,就係所在的酒店環境優美,又在一個大湖旁邊,酒店的設備完善,最正o的係...老細唔會留過夜 ^_^ 咁即係晚晚都好free啦!好,襯呢幾日嘆返吓先!

 

各位三日後見!

泥水佬做門, 下一句係乜野呢?